CDKL5
After 5 months of searching we finally have a diagnosis.
CDKL5, aka CDKL5 Deficiency Disorder (CDD). A rare genetic mutation on both boys CDKL5 gene. The uncontrolled seizures, GI issues, Cortical visual impairment, global developmental delays can now all be explained by their genetic mutation. I don’t have the words to express how awful this is to learn. There is no cure. Many of those diagnosed with CDKL5 will never walk, or talk, some will never sit unassisted, and it seems boys are affected more severely- only time will tell us how severely the twins are impacted.
So now what? Therapy is our best shot at getting these boys mobile – to me the more mobile they are the better the quality of life, not only for them but also for our family. They are in physical therapy 2 times a week, and vision therapy 1 time a week. We are working to get the boys into Occupational and Speech therapy. I have been researching about intensive therapies that are available and hope to take the boys to a Napa Intensive Therapy in the next year.
Our current neurologist here in Florida wants to treat the seizures more aggressively than we would like so we are looking into CBD oil, the Ketogenic diet. She has also never worked with a patient that has CDD so as a parent it is hard taking advice from someone with no experience. Which brings me to where we are now- Prior to our diagnosis we were trying to get the boys into Boston Children's Hospital. We were in the process of having their files reviewed by the Brain Development and Genetics Clinic but then we got their genetic test results. Thankfully Boston Children's has a CDKL5 Center of Excellence and the took us right in.
Derrick, the twins and I are traveling to Boston Children’s Hospital to see a
team of doctors at their CDKL5 clinic on October 20th. While there we will talk with a genetic counselor about their mutation. We will also meet with a neurologist that specializes in CDKL5, Dr. Heather Olson.
Everyone asks how I'm doing. I really hate that question- because how would you expect someone to be that just found out her beautiful boys might never speak, sit up or walk? I am devastated by this, truly heartbroken. I'm grieving a life I envisioned. But we are ok. We are determined to give them the best life possible. We are hopeful and will continue to live the life we were living before the boys were diagnosed. We have two other children that count on us and they deserve the best- we all do.
I am going to start writing about our journey to keep friends and family posted, but also to raise awareness. So many things could have been done differently along the way that ultimately delayed our diagnosis. But that story is for another day.
We are praying for two miracles and hoping you all continue to keep them in your prayers.
-Ashley Klein
Dear Ashley. Your twins are so lucky to have you and Derrick as their parents. You love so deeply and clearly and that's what your family needs a lot of. We're all praying and knowing that, through your love and dedication, your family will grow up in ways you might never have imagined. Your friends and family--we're all here. We want to help in any way possible. While there is heartache, there is also hope for a cure, and love. There is always love.
ReplyDeleteI'm a friend of Ann's, Ashley. Only connected to you, and your babies, through her. But I am connected to many, and perhaps linked energy can accomplish great things. Sending love.
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ReplyDeleteDear Ashley,
ReplyDeleteI am a distant relative and fellow mother of twins. In fact, we may not literally be related by blood but I wouldn't know--- because your family has always just been talked about as part of mine growing up.
I can only imagine how you feel about this devastating news. We do not know one another, but we seem to have a lot in common.
My twins had a rough beginning however we are learning more about their own genetic predispositions and it is a tough pill to swallow.
I myself have been hit by aggressive hereditary cancer when they were five months old and although the details are different, I remember clearly the desperation and the terror, the blow to our psyche that came so unexpectedly-- also related to a gene mutation, and feeling like all of our lives were spinning so incredibly out of control. We are still dealing with the fallout, but for me it has softened a bit as we found our way to fit into such a seemingly impossible situation.
I hear you.
If it would help to talk about twin things, about loss, about feeling all of these normal, human feelings, I am here for you. I will listen, and help if and when I can. I will be rooting for you from far away, up in the coastal redwood forests of far-northern California. My heart aches for you.
For whatever it is worth, some of the most precious times I spend and still spend with my twins is when they have fallen asleep. This of course takes a great deal of effort, as you likely know! Sometimes it was only with one at a time; eventually they would fall asleep together and I would just lay with them and gaze at the peaceful little humans I created. Even if these were fleeting moments I drank them in and still do. During those moments of silence, when I can forget about what may be coming for me, or for them. Those are the moments I can quiet myself and know that as unfair as it all is, we were meant to be together.
It helped to take care of myself and practice radical self-care when I was able, although it was impossible some days. I had to ask for a lot of help, and for some reason it was harder to accept it, than to request it. I am getting better at that. I get a lot of therapy, and try to remember that I need caring for, too.
Many of the best moments for me have been the in-between moments, the rare, quiet ones, and the bits of joy found in surprising places.
Twin Moms are special.
Love,
Lauren Carman
P.S. I could not edit my original post; I also saw that it did not include my actual name, so I deleted it and re-posted this. Ann knows how to find me. I am sending love your way.
I am praying for y’all. Just thought you should know. Many prayers going up for you and those sweet boys, and your whole family. I am a friend of Jenny Merto’s.
ReplyDeleteGod bless these babies and the whole family. Hold them close, give them strength and patience and hope. Let them feel Your love and know that friends and family are praying for them.
ReplyDelete(I forgot to mention, I am a friend of Ann)
DeleteHi! I'm a mom to Savannah Taylor, your kid's CDLK5 sister. Welcome to the family. If you need anything please reach out. We are five years into the journey so hopefully there's something that we can help you with along the way. What a blessing to have two babies. But that also means that you have two different kids with the same disorder which is probably overwhelming. Please just remember that these kids do not see it all the way that we see it. Please know in your heart that they do not know that they have a disorder and it does not bother them that they cannot walk or talk. Simple tasks such as looking out the window or going outside will make them so happy. All they need is yours love and yours support. Your voice is so important, your blog is amazing and inspiring already. Sending so much love ❤
ReplyDeleteDear Ashly,
ReplyDeleteAnn has been keeping us up to date on the twins. Please know that there are so many people at Mount Mary praying for you! Your powerful love is the best treatment for your little guys, and you are doing an amazing job. Lots of love, Paula
Your twin boys are lucky to have you and your husband as their parents to get them the best care to help them get through this ❤️ You and your husband and your boys and family are in my thoughts and prayers 🙏❤️🙏
ReplyDeleteKeeping the twins and your family uplifted in prayer. Thank you for sharing your story.
ReplyDeleteWith love and that our Heavenly Father would guide you through this journey.
Debbie Graham❤️❤️❤️❤️